Sunday was the Baltimore NEDA Walk, where I walked with a group of women from treatment as well as a couple of my family members; we called ourselves StrongHer. I couldn’t be more proud of my team – we raised over $3,600 for NEDA, making us the top team in fundraising. The girls (and my … Continue reading »
There have been a lot of changes going on, a lot of adjusting to new things and saying goodbye to old ones, and I’m trying to cope without falling back on my eating disorder. It’s been difficult because it’s soo, so easy to make excuses for not eating: I had a lot of schoolwork last … Continue reading »
I called my mom tonight because I was feeling pretty lousy, and she dropped some wisdom on me: “You have the power to release the eating disorder. To demand it to leave. You are strong, and you’re acting like you’re not strong because you don’t believe you are … you are not this disease. You … Continue reading »
It’s official – I’m discharging from the partial hospitalization program (PHP) on Tuesday and transitioning into the intensive outpatient program (IOP) on Wednesday! I’m looking forward to the change because IOP will give me a little more independence than PHP: instead of being on a locked unit twelve hours a day, seven days a week, … Continue reading »
“You can’t cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.” – Rabindranath Tagore For me, the sea is my eating disorder, treatment is my vessel, and the opposite shore is a recovered mind. I’ve been struggling a lot recently, treading water and getting tired. It’s a riptide, this disordered thinking; it sneaks … Continue reading »
