Real talk: I used to be kind of a bitch. Not a “Mean Girls” on-Wednesdays-we-wear-pink kind of bitch, but a subtle one: I talked some shit, gossiped, and judged. I hooked up with people’s boyfriends and trash-talked girls I found threatening. I was so insecure with myself that putting other people down was an easy … Continue reading »
Hey – big news, everyone! Over the weekend, the American Psychiatric Association’s board of trustees approved the fifth edition of the DSM-V, the influential diagnostic manual of mental disorders – the bible of psychiatry. The changes will go into effect in May, marking the first time it’s been revised since the DSM-IV in 1994. This manual … Continue reading »
Whoops, I haven’t posted in almost two weeks… my bad! I’ve been a busy lady what with the holidays and work, friends visiting from out of town, etc etc. I had wanted to do a post about having a recovery-focused Thanksgiving and I’m a little disappointed that I didn’t do it; hopefully those of you … Continue reading »
I feel all sorts of buzzing inside my body, under my skin, vibrating my bones. It’s a good buzz; I am feeling it and feeling things are good. I have an overwhelming feeling of contentedness. I am okay, having accepted this happy buzzing. Although- there is a dark undertow of cravings and underlying urges that tug at … Continue reading »
I’ve written before about pro-ana websites – online communities that post “thinspiration” and tips on how to be more successful with your eating disorder – but I have never encountered pro-ana Twitter accounts. UNTIL TODAY! And let me tell you: they’re just as defensive and deluded on Twitter as they are everywhere else on the internet. … Continue reading »
“You never had a problem with alcohol,” a friend once scoffed. “Everyone drinks a lot in high school and college. You weren’t any different.” I’ve struggled with substance abuse for years and hearing that dismissal – from a friend, no less – made me feel invalidated and silly. I was never a drunk in the gutter, … Continue reading »
Last week started out Shitty with a capital “S,” and all because of a dumb number. I got weighed that Tuesday and it brought me down for days. I mean I knew beforehand that I had probably gained in the weeks since my last weigh-in, so I was prepared to see a little damage when … Continue reading »
I got one hour of sleep last night and felt dazzling this morning, and by dazzling I of course mean groggy, sluggish, and light-headed. I rolled out of bed and into my 8 am class wearing rumpled sweatpants and a hoodie, my hair in a messy knot on top of my head, clutching a mocha … Continue reading »
