Day 14 – Think about yourself one year ago. How have you changed?

A year ago I had just started my recovery journey. I was struggling a little more than I am now, and was still using drugs, alcohol, and sex as an escape from the turbulence I was feeling inside. Now, I’ve learned better coping mechanisms. I’ve been sober for five months and have reeled in my old habits; instead of running away from my problems I’m dealing with them upfront and in a much more healthy way.

Day 15 – When you are triggered, what do you tell yourself to calm down?

I’m still not very good at calming myself down from triggers – today I broke into tears after looking at myself in the mirror, feeling too fat to wear the dress I had on – but it’s something I’m working on. I saw this floating around the internet a while ago and it’s pretty helpful:

Is there anything you do to help with triggers? I’d love to know!

Day 16 – List 5 things you are grateful for.

1. My family. They are more than I could ever ask for: supportive, loving, understanding, always willing to sacrifice for one another. They’ve stuck by my side at my best and at my worst, and I’m absolutely in love with them.
2. My twin sister. She’s my best friend, a part of me since before we were even born. I love her so much – she’s one of my biggest drives towards recovery, and I want her to know I’ll always be around for her. Always, always!
   
3. My cat. Sounds silly but she brings a lot of joy to my life, and I can’t imagine what life was like without her in it. (Do I sound like a crazy cat lady? Because I totally am one.)
4. My health. Even though it’s not the best, at least I’m here and I’m alive, and that’s definitely worth something.
5. My friends in recovery. There’s something really special about the solidarity that comes from these friendships. They understand how it is to live with an eating disorder, how devastating and awful and weird and uncomfortable “normal life” can be. Everyone has their own experiences to share, and together we’re able to create a strong support network for one another and help hold each other up. I love the people I’ve met through treatment, this blog, and group therapies – they’re some of the strongest and bravest people I know!